Love is everlastin...but hate may oso last...

2009-06-07T10:00:00.000-07:00

Yo! FY's back. Thx to some of my frens, i managed to pull through, rite now my heart is still on fire for God, i hav seen de light! And i'm still tryin to live my best as myself and as a servent for God. My heart still yearn for her, but i'm in control now, because some1 told me tat our future depends on de choices we make, i wan to make de right choices to hav a better future, and i will slowly improve my friendship wif her, tryin to make her laugh more, cause her smile always brightens my day. THX to those who hav cheered me up, u guys are the BEST! Lets continue workin together as 1 big family for a brighter future for us all...YEAH!~

2009-06-05T20:12:00.000-07:00

Let me start frm de 1st day of my poly life, i really wan to thank God for givin me such a wonderful class, it was de best class tat i hav ever had. In jus 3 weeks, i alrdy treated them lyk my family, all of us were so bonded together, we did almost everything together, even though there maybe some glitches, but we still forgiv and forget. Although my poly life is quite fun, but we still hav to study for our term-test, and my term-test has jus ended, the feelin was so refreshin aft de term-test was over, and its time for our holidays...YEAH!! Some of us alrdy decided to organise some outings for our class, hope tat it will be F-U-N!!. But sth jus happened recently which made me so sad. Aft i knew of it, my heart was sinkin into darkness, my whole heart felt so heavy, it made me turn back to my emo self again. Its lyk shuttin myself frm de outside world, buildin bricks of walls, preventin others frm interactin wif me. I feel lyk i'm going through de winter time of my life, for others they gone through their winter times and felt de warmth of the sunlight, but for me its lyk my winter time jus gotten a whole lot colder, makin me feelin so cold tat i cannot see the light anymore. Jus imagine other ppl going through their winter times, the hail storm was so strong, but in the end they are able to reach home and feel the warmth of their love or even their family as they hugged each other, helpin each other to feel warm and comfortable, but for me, imagine me walkin through de forest with de hail storms blowin through my face, walkin and walkin, tinkin tat i will breakthrough, i will succeed, but now, half way along the road, once i heard of de news, i tripped and fell. And i do not hav anymore energy left in me to continue walkin, and slowly i disappear away wif no one to help me as i freeze to death.

2009-03-12T07:57:00.000-07:00

Tired... todae was so intense, i went to Jos's house first and learn drum, i had learnt a lot frm my best bro. Aft tat i, Jos and Shaun went swimmin along wif Jamie, KS and WeiLong. Ah!! Long time nvr swim le...it was a great exercise for me, then RJ oso came to swim wif us. All of us ordered CANADIAN PIZZA, it was so delicious. Aft tat we went to de gym to train, man it was so tiring, but i am willing to do it, its cause of her tat my determination was BURNING TO THE CLIMAX!! And i really did train non-stop, rite now my body is so heavy tat i cannot move properly, but it was all worth it, once our brain has decided on sth, we can make it happen, it only depends whether u hav the determination to continue on when u met lots of difficulties.

2009-03-11T06:55:00.000-07:00

Gosh!! todae i and Jos need to accompany my grandma to the hospital to help her register for operation on her leg, i really hope and pray tat everything will be fine, aft tat went to watch movie "PUSH" wif Jos, Shaun, and Daniel.The movie was all right for my brothers but it was boring for me cause i watched it once already. I also pray tat everything will be fine for one of my fren because she encountered a prob todae. Tml going to Jos house and go to the gym to exercise, then aft tat go for swimming...i bet tat it will be so much fun, i jus wish tat she will be there to hav fun wif us.

2009-03-10T09:23:00.000-07:00

AHHH!!! At last renewed my blog le, also damn long nvr blog leXP. Todae went through lots of trouble jus to hand in my enrolment form to de administration centre at Temasek poly (my future schoolXP).Then aft tat went to cs wif shaun and his mom to hav our lunch. It was my first time eatin beef rice with black pepper, cause most of de food there veri xpensive so i dun really go there eat...muahaha!! Now half of my mind is here bloggin, de other tinkin of somebody else, i was wonderin wat she doing, starin into de plain, dark sky wif no stars in sight, where hav all de stars gone to, maybe someday i will find my own star, and maybe i will realize my own true goals...

De clouds tat nvr change...

2008-06-16T01:32:00.000-07:00

Long time nvr blog liao...hahas...nowadays hav to stay at revise on my work cause of my bad results 4 de mid-year...my mom kept me at home n forbid me to go out...n home really is so damn boring...its lyk a bird kept in a cage wif no way out...its desire of wantin to spread its wings n fly into de azure blue sky...wantin to see de clouds up close...de feelin of de wind breeze blowin through my body...enjoyin de great view frm above...flyin over de great oceans...de sun pourin its light upon me...God frm heaven watchin over me...to disappear frm being caught again...i want to keep on flyin...hoping tat tis unimaginable feelings will be realized n will nvr change...but until tat day comes...i will continue to work hard...

2007-11-06T03:55:00.000-08:00

waking up on my bed as usual,staring up into de ceiling tinking of lots of things,tinking of how my life has become...it is lyk my life has no purpose anymore...all these days tried to find a job to get money...but they say not until i m 16...my birthday iS at november 28...it is jus a few days away...y can't they let me do de job...it feels lyk nobody wan me Anymore...lyk i m some kind of an outcast...nobody wans me around...so i stayed at home staRing in de screen of my com,sometimes tinkin tat none of my frens invite me out,but i dun blame them,they hAd their jobs to do...all i feel is de feelin of emptiness in my heart...it is lyk i m a bird in a cage tat wants to get free,How i wish 4 a princess to unlock de cage n let me fly away wif no worries under my wings...i wan to fly higher into de great big sky touching de great big clouds drifting away up in the sky wif no worries

2007-10-18T08:18:00.000-07:00

Man...so long nvr post liao...tis morning woke up at de wrong side of de bed...my whole body's muscle is in pain because of yesterday's badminton match...i played badminton yesterday 4 almost 2 hours non-stop...but todae upon hearin tat my grandmother has been hospitalized...i m so worried bout her...hope tat she will nvr hav to leave tis world..."touch wood!!!"...she always has been very kind to me frm de day wen i was a little child till now...although i dun noe de purpose of living but i m sure tat we must be strong to endure anything tat comes our way n stand up wif our own 2 feets wen we fall dwn...

2007-09-16T03:58:00.000-07:00

On my way to my tuition...i look up to de clouds n hav learn something veri important tadae...i hav learned tat frm de day we r born...we all hav a important role to play...all of us hav our own characteristic n good qualities...but our qualities may make others jealous of us...tats de reason y there r wars n disputes...i noe tat it is de wrong way...god created us differently because he wan us to learn frm each other...we can learn frm them de qualities we lack in...they oso can learn frm us de qualities they lack in...so tat we can make our world a beautiful n peaceful place...even though some of us do de wrong thing over n over again...no matter wat...god still loves us frm de bottom of his heart...because we r his creation...we r lyk his sons n daughters...god is lyk a father to me...it is because there is love...tats y de world we noe todae is still beautiful...now i noe tat my love 4 her will nvr change...jus lyk god's love 4 us will nvr change...hahaha...now i m so looking forward to my n-level exams...i hope tat i can make it to sec 5 so tat i can see her in her sec 4...muahahaXP

2007-09-09T03:50:00.000-07:00

Wth...tomolo skl start liao...so sianx sia...todae go play basketball wif wl,my bro,jz n daniel...play until so damn tired sia...well my skills only improve by a little...i so noob sia...hahaha...wen i n daniel go buy water...we saw a dead bird on de ground...tat bird was so big sia...but death may be a gd ting...so tat it will not have to endure anymore pain...tats wat my kor always tel me 1...but some ppl tried veri hard jus to live in tis planet...we may nvr understand them cause we r lucky to live in a perfect lifestyle...n we tend to overlook things tat r important to us...we always take them 4 granted...wen they disappear...then u will regret 4 not takin care of it...

2007-09-01T00:42:00.000-07:00

yesterday jus got back my results slip 4 prelim...others tink tat i did quite gd...but i tink tat i did quite badly in my ss n d&t...i nvr even try to study 4 these 2 sub...wen i got back my results...i reflect on myself...tinkin whether goin sec 5 or go ITE more better cause both still can go poly...a veri stupid question to be asked rite...others will say tat they will go sec 5 than ITE...but 4 me...i m scared tat i can't cope wif de o level hw if i go sec 5...but then goin ITE maybe easy to go poly but i feel as if it is not rite...wat i tink is to work hard n succeed...tats de thing i wanted...but i will pick to go sec 5...cause i must work even more harder than ever...jus to go poly...i hav to take a chance!!!

2007-08-25T06:26:00.000-07:00

My feelin 4 her has started to fade away day by day...wen eva i saw her smile...it doesn't bring me tat overwhelming energy anymore...but there is a new adventure aw8s me...nowadays my dreams is not de same as wat it used to be...actually,it is bout another person...tis person may save me frm my doubtness...lonliness...lighten my whole heart...extinguish all my illusions in my heart...wenever i look up into de blue sky...i saw her n i get de feelin to fly...feelin of de breeze blowin through my face...although its a dream...it can be fulfilled if my desire 4 her is strong...de desire to love again...de desire to bear de pain wif de person u love...de desire to be happy wif her...

2007-08-18T09:22:00.000-07:00

muahaha...at last the prelims r over...but there is still n level to come...english really makes lots of ppl worry...i jus worry tat after de n levels...my frenz,my families will leave my side...i can't bear to part wif them...i wish tat they will not have to go...but i cannot stop time nor any1 else...i understand tat they have their own path to take,own dreams to fulfill...i can only support n wish them luck in their future...i bet tat they will do de same to me...hahahaXP

2007-07-20T04:40:00.000-07:00

todae maybe boring 4 me...but as long as she is present...i will continue to study harder...she is jus lyk a petal of flower...weak n light...but wif water,sunlight...she can be stronger than any1 else...she is being pluck or withering...i will try my best to protect it frm dying...she is my everything...my love...my path to eternal love...although there maybe quarrel taking place...love is still in de air...believe in each other...have faith in each other...overcome de doubtness...we will be 2 loving birds for eternity...our souls will nvr be seperated frm each other...as love has overcome time n space...through de pain n sorrows...

2007-07-18T04:33:00.000-07:00

todae de most weirdest thing happen...wen boarding de bus...she was jus in front of me...i kept lookin at her n almost fell...then wen we r bout to alight...we also go down de bus together...i accidentally knock onto de bus exit door...wat is happening???but todae something terrible happen too...twb lied bout my classmates not being punish,but in de end they still got punish...nxt time better not make promises tat u can't keep...i hope tat i can everyday see her smile...her eyes...her face...maybe i m jus crazy bout her...XP...'believe' has kept me going through de rough times...'hope' has kept me in believing my frenz,my families n her...'desire' has kept me hoping 4 chance wif her...although some of our fate may be in total darkness...but as long as there is love on tis planet...darkness will be turned to light even at de darkest times...

2007-07-16T04:06:00.000-07:00

Last nite aft hearing some tupid news...my whole heart is being swollowed by darkness...a heart sinking into the deepest black ocean...a heart being blocked frm de light...a heart being contaminated wif sadness...a heart being surrounded by lonliness...a heart lost in de forest of hatred...but luckily some1 kept me frm doubting my own feelings...my darkened heart is being shined by de light of hope...n it is all thx to my DUCK KOR...todae...i've plan to do de best i can to keep tis light frm being turned into a feelinless darkness...

Things tat i dreamt...

2007-07-15T03:22:00.000-07:00

Waking up frm a nightmare...watchin her drifting away frm my sight...her shadow turned into thin air...in tis nightmare...i m experiencing a feelin of lonliness tat lasts 4ever...tat kind of feelin is scarier than de scary movies tat u all watch...the pain is uncomparable than a d0zens of arrows piercing through ur heart...no 1 want to go through tat kind of feelin...wish tat my nightmare will not come through!!!

HeR sMiLe

2007-07-13T07:53:00.000-07:00

HeR sMiLe really makes my day a lot better...it brings me light of hope to endure wat is to come my way...it taught me the meaning of living a better life...i wish tat she can show me her smile everyday...

2007-05-12T03:56:00.000-07:00

waa......so long nvr post liao hahaha...i busying study 4 my mock exam...i tink i can pass my exam...but i tink maybe jus pass ba...hahaha...maybe i study too much liao tat i nvr properly see her...hahaha

2nd day of common test...

2007-02-23T03:11:00.000-08:00

So long nvr update my blog liao...hahahas...todae i was so scared of my ss test,scared tat i will fail it,but luckily todae our ss teacher gave us a paper to do tat can add in our common test marks...hahaha...Tis coming monday will be mathes common test,it will a piece of cake for me to do mathes test...hahaha

ToDaY 0F HeArInG s0mEtHiNg VeRy DiSaPpOiNtEd

2007-01-23T02:00:00.000-08:00

Today going to skl n first period is p.e, so sianx...BuT in the end i did enjoy myself cause what we did is playing badminton which i haven done it for almost 2 years...AfTeR skl i went with my k0r to eat,i was my first time tat i m having vegetables instead of meat,not jus 1 vege's but its the whole plate filled with vege's,i find it quite delicious...hahahas...In bus going home,i over heard tat 1 of my juniors of the boys brigade said tat (my rival) asked ..... to go out with him n smiled...i was very heart broken...But i tel myself not to be angry in front of them...

S0Me1 tAt Is UnReAsOnAbLe...(AlEiN)

2007-01-08T03:40:00.000-08:00

Man todaes is the 2nd wk of term 1 of 2007,finally knew tat alien had tranferred to another skl...
but todae on my way back home with trusted bro joseph n daniel...shermund sms me teling me tat alien transferred skl jus because of me n joseph...tats jus lame...it is all tat alien's fault lor...he should not have told us n showed us tat kind of things!!!It is his own fault then he still dare to blame us,wat a JERK!!!How i wish to hammer his penis then he will nvr eva have father's day...

NeW yEaR 0f ScH00L...

2007-01-03T03:49:00.000-08:00

T0dae is the New Year for me to return to my skl...Lyk i said...A NeW YeAr WiTh A NeW bEgInInG...hehehe...the night before i was so excited to return to skl cause i wan to see my friends tat i haven seen in 3 months...S0Me of my friends told me tat they r not happy for returning to skl as they 1 to spend their lives at home playing computer...AfTer skl i had to go for a dental appointment...the dentist said tat my bottom teeth r clean for my upper front tooth had a hole,the dentist did a lot of touching with my tooth...AfTer leaving the skl walking with my kor n derick to the bus stop going,i started feeling pain as my tooth is exposed to the air,i do not noe y but it is very painful...Lyk some1 said no pain no game rite...?

My Boring Birthday...

2006-11-28T06:54:00.000-08:00

Todae is my birthday,but its the same as my previous birthday,nobody celebrate with me my birthday but i won't complain cause it is already a habit to me liao...Although not celebrating my birthday,but i still have a few of my families wishing me happy birthday n i m grateful to them...=p.But i wish f0r some1 to jus stay by side tats all...

2006-10-29T07:58:00.000-08:00

Pai sei,so long nvr do blog... =p Ahhh....nice to see my blog again,he he he......today so damned sianx...hahaha,tomolo so many ppl nvr go for physics remedial...hahaha...Mr Neo really going to be mad...hahaha...Wishing to be with some1 for eternity...everytime i tink of her,my wounds,pains n boredness would jus disappear but it seems impossible cause she is 4 years older than me... =( but no matter wat,i would still hold on to the rope of hope n hang on to it...

2006-09-18T04:44:00.000-07:00

Sianx,tomolo need to go tuition for maths,but i have no choice,i need to work more harder for my exams,n my science chemistry i m trying to aim full marks,i noe it is impossible,but wen i remember tis phrase tat i watch a show about a guy n he said:"i m the man who can turn the impossible into possible..."quite lame rite...n at las i have only a little feeling for u liao...i cannot be bothered with u but if u need any1 to share to your sorrow n pain,u can find me...he he he...n good luck in your final-term exam...

2006-09-12T05:13:00.000-07:00

Man,todae another boring day...wish tat s0mething would happen on tis day!!!But i had another god-mei liao,he he he...her name is Wui An...i would cal her apple-mei while she cal me watermelon kor,sounds weird to me but dun noe whether my jie jie will be angry with for being somebody else's kor...well it is jus a thought.Hui Zhen too has come back being my mei again.I still miss her in my heart,but i tink it is impossible between us,but i won't give up!!!0s0 wishing tat everybody can remember my new nickname:'Stargazer'......

2006-09-02T06:03:00.000-07:00

Todae is another boring day for me,i was going for my tuition n was tinking of u...but i still have no idea to say to u...but after tuition i have made my decision n i m going to wait...finally got my hair cut n it looks ok to me....but i wonder how r u going to say about my hair...hehehe...looking forward to tis tuesday for battling out with the malays counter-strike...

2006-08-31T07:25:00.000-07:00

Todae i finally got back my results...it was more poor than the last time i got my results...=( I oso damn sad because 0f s0me1...I tried to comfort my k0r(J0seph)cause his results r not so good...but DO NOT GIVE UP KOR,U CAN DO IT IF U PUT YOUR MIND INTO IT!!!Well at least my other k0r n jie got high marks f0r their exams...

2006-08-27T03:13:00.000-07:00

Man!todae also the same n boring day...i have to get up early to go to tuition n jus get scolded by my tuition teacher...wen i m going home,i saw the nissan skyline GTR(initial D car)it was cool!!!wish tat i could get 1 wen i grow up...hahas...waiting for bus,my stupid kor(shaun) cal me n tel me to lend warcraft disc from my other kor(eugene),i jus kept quiet n let him keep on toking...i will not listen to him n i dun care!!!Toking to some1 n the miss doraemon on the fone also very bored cause no words to say...then suddenly they become crazy n tok loudly on the fone!!!it almost make my ear spoil......hehehe.......miss doraemon dun noe saw wat on the TV n say:YIYA...yiling learn from her nsay the same thing,i feel curious to noe wat r they watching...then they keep saying the same thing,S0 N0ISEY!!!den dun noe say wat u r my pig,oink oink!!!

ThE fIrSt Bl0g I eVeR cReAtEd!!!

2006-08-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

Tis is the first time i do tis blog,so dun blame me for doing so badly,hehehex....man...i have ask my 2 kor to help me with my blog.